somethings happen in my life today , and i can't forget it ...

somethings happen in my life today ,

i think around 3 somethings in the morning .

that was very scary .

i don't know what i suppose to do .

but i scare if i speak put , i can't control my tears .

even it already pass , and all my family are safe ,

but i can't relax . i can't sleep well .

i tell myself , i need to protect myself .

i need to protect everyone in my life .

i can't sleep tonight .

that a very scary experience.

but if you try before ,

you will know how i feel now .

but if i keep talking this ,

i will keep on crying ,

i can't stop crying .

really .

i don't know when i only can live out from these memories .

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god , are you joking me?

this is the 1st time , god .

i don't want to lost my family .

i don't want !

god , please bless us .

-No Rights . - My Real Feeling

Okay ,

you know why i want to write this post?

what is the point?

is just because of the stupid things .

they have no rights to denda me .

but never mine .

i just give them denda .

i don't mine .!

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sometimes i don't give you draw my book ,

then you scold me .

you don't even know ,

how much should i rub because of your conteng .

conteng a lot and don't help me to rub .

don't give you conteng then say I just care bout' my schoolmates.

don't care bout' you .

you don't even know how i feel .

not in a same school ,

the rules also not the same .

you conteng my book ,

in the end of the year ,

i must rub all .

and now you just think that i'm not important now .

so ,

if nothings ,

i think you won't call me .

i think my classmates care bout' me more than you .

you know what happen today?

you don't know .

some more you don't know how i feel .

but they do .

they really know what kind of people am i .

and know how to respect me .

but you don't .

last tiem ,

i really think that i very important in your life ,

this few days ,

oh no ,

is this few month ,

every things change .

you just care bout her .

go shopping with her .

go lah .

next time i won't go out .

just think i'm wanna study ,okay .

give me some space .

no ,

you give a lot of space to me .

maybe ,

our distance is more far now ...

you won't know how i feel now .

i swear you don't know.

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Evonee

9-11-2010

Tuesday

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this post ,

is for someone .

i hope she know how i feel .

but i know it is very hard .

Wedding dress .

i think all of you know who's taeyang right ?

and i think everyone like his song "wedding dress"right?

i saw the his mv just now ,

he is pretty cool .

and that mv is touch .

when he dance ,

he is so damn cool !

i almost crazy because of him (not that serious also)

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do you heard before ?

rain - love song .

in this mv ,

i saw a comment .

got one people say that he is hot and she wanna to rape him ,

funny right ?

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today i having exam too .

exam subject is ,

math 1 , seni visual , math 2 .

so ,

i think i gonna to sing ,

I'M NOT AFRAID ,

TO TAKE THIS STAND ,

EVERYBODY ,

COME TAKE MY HAND ,

WE WALK THIS WORLD TOGETHER THROUGH THE STORM ,

WHATEVER WEATHER COOL OR WARM .

JUST LETTIN' YOU KNOW THAT ,

YOU ARE NOT ALONE .

HOLLA IF YOU FEEL THAT YOU HAVE BEEN DOWN THE SAME ROAD .

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i'm mad today .

i don't even know what am i writing men!

bye .

time to prepare exam things .

bye bye

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Evonee

22-10-2010

Friday

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I hate Lam Fong .

I think almost all of you like lam fong ,

last time ,

i had bit admire him .

but ,

this whole month ,

i changes my mind .

if really need to wait his signature for 2-3 hours ,

then why I don't waste some money ,

go to see my own idol .

I think i was too over ,

i was damaging people idol .

i'm mot sure you are a fans of him or not .

if really is ,

i sorry to write this post .

today i having my exam .

hope god bless me that i could get a good result .

be honest ,

i really try my best to study .

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Evonee

21-10-2010

Thursday

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I couldn't love without love .

Okay ,

if you think that this post is about love ,

then you are wrong .

but ,

say true ...

i can't live without love from my family .

maybe is since when i small ,

i was the smallest in my family ,

so some of them give me more love then my brothers .

i love the love they gave .

and i can't live without their love .

be honest ,

sometimes ,

i'm small gas .

but i just wish i won't lose my love .

i will have that love forever .

that all i wish .

i know that i couldn't be like that ,

but ,

human sometimes is selfish .

so i don't know what i think is correct or not .

tomorrow i having my exam .

god!

my worst subject !

i should end my post now and go study .

everyone ,

bye and good night .

I need people love ,

but i love people too..

love you friends , my lovely parents and brothers .

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Evonee

20-10-2010

Wednesday

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all the best and try your best in our exam friends !

FIGHT FOR THIS EXAM !

LET FIGHT TOGETHER !

Grandpa birthday ...

Okay ,

today is my grandpa early birthday party ...

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRANDPA "

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Be honest ...

I think my cousin and I is very good in eating ...

examples :

1st - we ate all the prawn before the waitress took the sos to us

2nd - we finish 3 plate of food before they give us the rices...

Pro right ?

when my auntie saw us eating ...

they also say us ...

" new generation "(we ate to fast )

after finish eating ...

then we still at the restaurant talking about life ...

I still give them bully ..

pity me lah ...

but that still okay .

just got 1 bully me only ...

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today ,

i found out somethings .

that ,

while boy playing anythings ...

they sure will open somethings bout girls ...

like the song of girl generation or Tiara ...

or maybe 2nei ...

then how bout girls?

they do the same things ,

but different is ...

they open somethings about shinee ...( i love shinee )

or maybe bigbang ( i love bigbang too)

or maybe beast ( i like beast too )

and other others ...

or maybe they see their lovers ..

you know...

that very hard to say who you seeing in

youtube , google , or maybe is facebook .

this world has a lot of different kind of people .

we wont ever know what he seeing while you are sleeping or somethings else .

i feel that i'm tired playing today .

bye everyone .

not bye is goodnight .

good night everyone .

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Evonee

16-10-2010

Saturday

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my eyes wanna close now ...

good night .

ARGHHH! !!! I GONNA BE CRAZY !

This whole week ...

I WAS TOO HARDWORKING MEN !

THAT BROKE MY RECORD .

I study and study and study and study ...

could you believe that ?

I WAS SO DAMN LAZY also keep on study ...

that so ..

I'm shock ...

Just this week ...

I have gone to library for two times ...

(you know that i don't like books )

arghhh...

i wish that I'm a small girl ...

then not much things to worried about ...

NO LOVE ( FAMILY LOVE OF CAUSE GOT LAH )

NO THAT MUCH OF HOMEWORK ...

AND STILL CAN BE SO NAIVE ...

NO NEED CARE WHAT OTHERS PEOPLE THINK ABOUT US ...

Just do myself ...

-I AM WHO I AM -

I just who I am ...

feel so sleepy ...

morning 8.00 woke up and prepare go library ...

After that ,

at library study for ....

i think 4 hours ...

but the time past fast ....

after that ...

i went to school ...

until 6.30 i came back from school ..

after that ,

prepare go tuition ...

at tuition keep on doing math ...

forget about time ...

then is TIME FOR HOME ..

Actually i want to study ...

but i really give up ...

feel so tired now ...

maybe tell you a secret ...my eyes like wanna close already

(at 11.30 p.m. )

oh god !!!

I become weaker and weaker ...

i must tahan men!

later i still need to study and do my homeworks ...

i think is should end my post now ...

feel so sleepy ...

bye bye ~

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Evonee

Thursday

14-10-2010

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I have forget about 1 things ...

Adam Lambert is having a concert today ...

even he is gay...

but hope he have a nice day in Malaysia ...

GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE !!!

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